Dammit Wednesday: Staying Committed.

I didn’t do a Dammit Wednesday entry last month because I was enjoying some time off in Las Vegas. I haven’t been doing a lot of blogging lately because my time at work is completely booked and if I’m not doing even more work at home I’m getting to bed early or I’m simply not spending my night on a computer.

In my last entry I wrote about how I can be a yes-man at work and I’ll often find myself taking on too much. This time around I wanted to write about the same subject but now I’m past the point of taking on the projects, I have the projects lined up and I need to get them done. Basically, I need to stay committed to my commitments. Let me break down what I have on my plate right now so you can get an understanding of the ‘over-encumbered’ state I’m finding myself in, and why things like blogging and keeping up with internet life has become somewhat low priority in the scope of things -

As it stands right now I’m trying to get a start on a website I’m creating through work, I also have another completely separate website that I’m developing in my free time, a freelance project for some cash I could really use right now. Along with the 2 websites, at work I’m also the lead coordinator for a massive bid we’re working on to deploy 2 wireless networks in two very large hotels, we’re talking a combined 1,000+ rooms. I’m going on-site with equipment vendors and contractors, I’m reviewing legal documents, making phone calls, sending emails, I might even be flying down to Dallas, TX this January for certification training on the equipment. As if that wasn’t enough we’re also in the process of shifting backbone connections that will eventually effect our 3 largest cable systems, while I’m not concerning myself with helping out with that just yet, I still have to keep it in the back of my mind. It wouldn’t be as bad if my daily office functions somehow disappeared while I was working on these ‘extra-curricular’ projects, but I still have to perform my basic IT and support functions while I’m at the office. The world spins just as fast regardless of my work load.

I wouldn’t say that I’m complaining, I’m actually having a blast with some of this stuff, I’m becoming more and more involved with the bottom line of the company and it’s a good feeling to be given the opportunity to work on projects like this. Also, I guess I have to be thankful that I even have a job right now and I’ll be kept busy at my job for a long time to come. I’m trying to create limits for myself, I’m starting to clarify when I can and can’t get things done and I think I’m starting to find out for myself what I can handle doing in a given day. For example: This week I started playing around with new color ideas on my blog, after burning an evening just ‘playing around’ I decided to revert to what it is now, 2 websites is enough , I found out that I don’t have the time to take on anything else.

So what does this mean? Well, I’ve always believed that there is no such thing as ‘temporary’, everything takes longer then it should, and many things that should return to a previous state never do. In the end everything is permanent to some degree. So to be honest I’ve thought about my passion for things like blogging, I’ve thought about just closing down my little page on the internet so I wouldn’t have to be concerned about maintaining it. I know so many people that had established blogs and they just simply stopped writing entries for them, I have a feeling they went through the same thing, life just gets busy. But at the same time I’d rather keep trying then throw it all away.